Searching For My Divine Why
Have you been asked to create or share your ‘Why’ as the basis of building a business, or setting the course to creating your best life? Me too. And maybe like me, you've fallen off the ‘Why-Wagon’ enough times to realize that strategy might not work for everyone.
I’ve just recently come to the conclusion that I don’t have a singular Why that will motivate me through back to back *Tower moments, and that’s okay. Let’s be honest, my Why changes with the seasons and flows with whatever has my immediate attention.
I’m at a point in life where a ‘why-du-jour’ isn’t serving me in my quest for personal and professional growth. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact I’m not in a desperate situation. All of my basic comforts are being taken care of, allowing me to succesfully manage my way through the more ‘extreme situations’. While I did hit an emtional rock bottom in 2018, I was fortunate enough to have access to the resources I needed to get through that storm.
"I'm looking to live and express my life
as a whole woman, unfractured by the labeling
systems as created by our current patriarchal society."
I’ve since realized that my journey needs to go much deeper than a surface based Why. As I'm learning more about the Divine Feminine and working with a Goddess type, I’ve realized that I don’t really know who I am as a Woman without the labels of all the other things that I am like mother, daughter, wife. I’m very curious to understand ‘Why’ I am the woman I am today and how I got to be her, with the goal of translating that understanding into a daily practice of living a life inspired by the Divine Consiousness. In other words, I’m looking to live and express my life as a whole woman, unfractured by the labeling systems as created by our current patriarchal society. From there, I'd like to curate a Why based on the unique imprint of my Goddess given right.
For the most part, we are all challenged to participate in the act of now, forcing us to choose our Why based on who we are today. This pushes us into a frustrating pattern of indecision and inconsistent engagement with our purpose. You can’t be me, and I can’t be you ~ but we can have the same or very similar Whys, opening the door to unintentional competition and comparison.
In order to tap into my Divine Consiousness, I know I can’t start this journey by observing the woman I am today. I need a deeper understanding of how I got here, and how my personal timeline has affected, positve or negative, who I am today. My Feminine Self is the cumulation of my almost 42 years worth of experiences; there’s a lot to unravel. The goal of peeling back these layers is to connect with my Matriarcal aligned purpose and bridge my ancestral heritage with the legacy of my future.
I’m excited to embark on this adventure, and hope you’ll join me. If you feel compelled to start your own Divine Conscious journey, I’d love for you to reach out and share.
In the meantime, stay blessed
Love, Light and starDust
* The Tower ~ Major Tarot card describing an upsetting life disturbance, and/or tragic set back.